where to go?

The past few months I have not been doing important nor interesting here anymore. Today was the worse, I actually don't have anything to do but to go to the office anyways. Am very disappointed that I have to fight my way to a front seat of a jeepney just so i could get in early at work only to be just sitting here and wait for my 8 hours to finish. I feel bad about having to spend my time sitting here and wasting my time when I could do something more helpful. Perhaps save the world. I start to wonder if i really belong here. I find that I much enjoy my weekends. Although it's the most exhausting time of my week but I feel that at least I am doing something important rather than sit around and wait for some order. i hate that i get to be paid to do nothing. I hate that i am here when i could be with someone right now but i know i can't leave here. :( anyways so many things to decide next month. if i should stay here in cebu and find another job and continue with my serving the Lord or leave cebu and be with the guy i love and leave everything behind. :( wish me luck. :(