LoVe

Eversince I got into this long distance relationship, i've received a whole lot of raised eyebrows in disbelief that in so many times i have had my heart broken I have not learned my lessons at all. Here i am again putting myself out for a person who I have not in a long time seen or talked to. Reasoning out that being friends with him during college won't suffice everyone's concern that it is not enough to trust that easily especially because we are distance apart and that people change. While their being worried to my happiness is understandable and even sweet at most times, i can't help but start questioning myself about doing the right thing. It seem not fair to question his sincerity no matter what my excuse is for having a doubtful heart. but what do i really know? the past relationships i've had (and quite a few there'd been) i was just the same as now, too trusting. how i can be so sure that what happend before will never happen again? i stood up only to fall over and over again. have i not had enough of this? i guess not, for i'm back on the place where i used to be. it's up to him if he would let me fall on the ground.

I was asked why i would risk being hurt again? i guess the suffering i felt of not knowing of what it would be like to be with him is much greater than the fear i have of possible heart break. Been hiding for so long and boy was i safe but lonely. I wouldn't let anyone in and it was too damn sad until he came. i was so sure that i wouldn't fall for him because of the distance between us but was i wrong. was i wrong to think that i was so safe. The next thing i know we are in this what people call Long Distance Relationship or LDR (can't believe there is a title for this). Why did i agree to this? That I have no idea. All I know is i just want to be with him. How do i know if he is not going to hurt me? I don't. I'm taking my chances. I'll be just fine, i think. I know that someone is watching over me. So there isn't really anything to worry about, right? uhmmm Fine i'm a bit scared but hey I am happy and just let me be. I can handle myself perfectly if should anything happen. ^__^